*crosses fingers*

wow...i haven't been this nervous in a long freakin time
i hear back from dream job EMC tomorrow...ok so for those of you who still read this i guess i should update and tell ya about the job huh?
ok so the job is a software implementation specialist. i'm currently reading and brushing up on my unix and Tcp/ip shit...ugh fun huh
but seriously tho...the job seems like it would be very cool
basically what i do is to update the corporation's software protocols and databases along with updating their software. i also set up connections for clients in the nc area (yeah i'd be relocating to raleigh or charlotte nc). the job seems great b/c
a.) technical stuff is my forte...i love working with computers and i absolutely love setting shit up so that stuff works faster
b.) the corp team seems amazing--they are so nice and would hook me up with sweet shit
c.) i'd get emc certified which opens enormous doors to other and better paying tech jobs
d.) this is the highest paying entry-level job i've seen (in comparision to my friends' salaries and family members' starting salaries)
e.) raleigh and charlotte are freakin sweet-ass places that are supposed to be a LOT of fun
f.) the BENEFITS are mindblowing...i'd get health, dental, vision, mental/substance abuse insurance (lol which means that if i get addicted to crack or have a mental breakdown, my insurance will cover my costs), prescription insurance (no paying full price for medicine for me!), health care spending accounts, stock options, business travel insurance (so if my shit gets stolen..i get reimbursed!), plus they agreed to pay the ENTIRETY of my graduate school expenses including a stipend--i just come back after i get my MS and work for 2 years to pay it off...nice a job waiting for me after my master's is done!!
g.) raleigh is super freakin cheap...i can still live nicely w/o the NYC/NJ area costs and tax

i dunno i'm so nervous...i don't know what to do if i don't get the job. it'll be such a letdown and i know i'll be so dissapointed. i just hope i don't get so down that i don't get back up again...it would be a heartbreak. but you know what? i'm determined to get a great job and i'm willing to get as much education i need to get to make this dream possible.
dang seriously i wish college had this class or something called Live in the Real World 101 or something...this whole job search thing can make some ppl at the end of their nerves and let alone all of a sudden plunging into a world of credit-card debt, grocery and utility bills plus shouldering your entire lifetime spending habits. scary. am i ready? i hope so!

ok so i'm going to nervously continue passing the hours away tonight...plz pray for me...seriously i hope i get the job.